Archive | July, 2013

Put On Your Big Girl Panties And Deal With It.

20 Jul

big girl panties

I scheduled my surgery for September 4th. I was fine with my decision up until I got the call from the Dr. office with the confirmation date. Since that time I have had these bouts of anger and a why me pity party.

I am MAD…..

I am mad at my parents for passing a defective gene down to me.

I am mad I even got checked for the stupid gene. ( I know irrational thought)

I am mad now my girls have to worry and get checked one day.

I am mad that I have dense breasts and a mammogram can not see a lump on the scan because it looks like trying to find a polar bear in a snowstorm

I am mad I can’t have a MRI for extra surveillance due to screws I have in my body.

I am mad the only thing I can proactively do is take a drug Tamoxifen for 10 years and that drug put you into menopause.

I am mad I must have surgery.

I am mad I have to be a burden on my husband and kids while I recover.

I am GLAD…..

I am glad I do not have Breast Cancer.


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